Lilan Jansen is originally Chinese, but has the Dutch nationality. With her deep brown eyes she looks at the bright side of life. Her difficult past has made her strong. Lilan stands in front of the camera for the first time and shares her ‘story’. Being a model is also showing who you are. This is very important to her; to be able to grow , but also to help others to discuss difficult matters. In Lilian’s case: self-harm. She started around the age of thirteen with a compass, pencil sharpener and razor.
Self-injury means that someone hurts himself for various reasons. It is a way to deal with unwanted emotions. About one in fifteen young people damage themself deliberately. It is a taboo for many people, who is crazy enough to hurt oneself ?! This means that many young people are terribly ashamed of it and do not talk about it. Lilan – on the other hand – shows her visible scars. She has suffered from depression and eating disorders, common problems for people who hurt themselves. Often the result of self-harm is that you become calm or feel something again; a kind of painkiller or flight from other emotions. The reasons can be different for each person, often there are several causes. In that difficult period Lilan did not use medication, but with help and by getting to grips with the bad feelings, she turned her life around. Her motto is: there are always nice things in life. She received the inner strength to do this by means of her faith. Lilan has a tattoo under her arm on the side of her body with a confession:
Matthew 11: 28-30
“Come to me, you who are tired and burdened, I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart. Then you will find rest for your souls, because my yoke is soft and my burden is light. “